UPDATE: Stalker Mode on the go...

Update (aug 2):

my stalking spell is winding down. considering that we both on different timezone and communication seems to be a hindrance (to him), i let him decides if he still wish to communicate with moi. i'm not chasing for it. if it meant to be, it will.....

have not heard from him than.... but its all good. at least i take my chances. =;O)

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so you have been looking for me online huh....

i been cheezin, smiling from ear to ear eversince i read your email this morning. brief as it may be your reply, but its enough to makes me smile.

yeah, mr puckerlicious lips i see yaa...uh huhh

I Got Me A Medal... hee hee...

the alarm went off at 530am. i drag my sleepy self out of bed, took a shower, did the morning prayer, get dress and out the door by 6am. with no breakfast. i was in a rush to be there by 645am i don't even have time for a toast.

hail a cab, paid $14 drop me off at meeting point while i wait for zu. while waiting, i can see the crowd of ladies in all shapes and sizes, off different races and nationality comes together, slowly marching in from all corners in the official blue top, looking like sea of smurfettes. it didn't cross my mind to snap pics, guess i was nervous and excited at the same time anticipating the brisk walk, praying i make it final point.

we finally set off at 730am, while most of the runners took off jogging, i walk at my own phase trying to get the rhythm. all i wanted to do was complete this race. as we approached the 500m of the finishing point, both zu and myself start to jog slowly. as we pass the finishing mark we give each other high five and smiling like we just won the new york marathon race..lol.

it was a great morning, as i get to reconnect with old friends and saying hello to new ones. than we all make our way to have a big breakfast at the local cafe and just chill out and having a good laugh.

shape run 5km in 48min.... i can't ask for anything better...

Who R U?

the elevator door open, i look up and immediately i saw you. or should i say we saw each other at the very same moment. i think i have a smile or i think it was a smile. you know the kind of smile like you have a secret but you not telling yet. well i hope it was a smile cuz i'm damn sure i could feel both end of my lips went up slightly. our eyes lock but i quickly look away. i'm not use to looking at strange man directly. hmmm especially if he looks like you... yeah i look at them on the sly.. hee hee.

i can tell that you're tall by the way you were seated. sitting straight, reading the paper. your white shirt still looking kinda crisp...dam did you starched it? white shirt, blue jean and that buzz military hairdo.....gawd my mind was having nasty thoughts. i do a quick all over, trying not to be so obvious. hmmm.. wondering if i can wash lingerie on your ab.. ok snap out of it!!

as i step out to the lobby, we both look away. but i know you were checking me out... how do i know that..

cuz you look up when i walk pass you.

dammit, of all day i'm in my sloppiest friday moment. double dammit!! should have worn my new maxi dress. maybe he would remember me as that lady in the blue dress....

sigh.. if only. but hey... at least i was brave enough to look him in the face, even if its for the briefest moment.

yeah i'm shy like that.... lol.

wonder if i will see him again...

The Queen is back with a bump...

i had a scare.

mom came back from visiting grandad only to be told that she fell and hit her head hard. the initial bump was huge (according to my aunts), but subsides a little couple of days later. however, when she came back yesterday, the bump has is still there. its been 4 days since that incident.

i took her to see the doctor in the morning. it took us almost 2.5hrs of waiting time (since we went to general public instead of private) for a less than 15min consultation. we than proceed to the hospital for further check up. i decides mom should have xtray and brain scan to eliminate any worries like internal bleeding or hairline fracture.

while waiting for all this to go through, all i could think about was her health. it was a blessing when the results show that mom is well. guess her skull is in good shape...lol. doctor said, the bump will remain till about 2 weeks or so as it wont subside that quickly. mom need to do a follow up in 2 days time. if she has any symtom of throwing up, visual impairment, headache, etc she needs to check-in asap. i'm praying that won't happens.

i'm just counting my blessing and grateful to God, for i was full of worries but trying hard not to show mom. but i know she was scared cuz she refuse to have lunch till everything is over with. i know mom.. she loves food too much to pass it.

i'm glad she's home =:O)

Keep Walking...

tonight i decide to brisk walk alone. usually i have my *walking* buddy with me but i just don't feel like having company and making polite conversation.

however, the sudden urge to brisk walk could also due to my burger king lunch and the fact i'm participating in a 5km shape run next sunday. i needed to prep as i don't wish to get too comfy on the day itself and not able to cope.

it was a good walk as i add an extra 1km to the usual route. i was perspiring even before i hit the pavement. now, i'm feeling kinda achy, hopefully it won't affect my flow tomorrow. as a treat, i had pan fried salmon and crush ice, top with red peanuts and syrups as desert. yes, it defeats the purpose having that desert, but i needed MOTIVATION... lol.

mom is out of town for about 5 days, and i'm already missing her. i hope she have a great time meeting up with my grandad. i'm kinda piss as i can't go since everything was plan at last minutes. i'm sure i be hearing lots of story when she returns.

now, i have to think of what for dinner tomorrow =:O(

Life is FUCKING Great!!

that's the exact word i said in my dream!!

it was the weirdest dream i ever had last night. i was taking a ride in an old car with two other friends and we were yakking throughout the drive.

i alighted from the car, ask this white dude why the hell he is bored and make my merry way to meet up with friends for dinner.

i was singing out loud and swinging my hand to Man Down by Rihanna when suddenly i just said out lout.. LIFE IS FUCKING GREAT!!

as i make my merry way to meet with friends, i saw a girl that looks just like me, only she a shade darker and was wearing a red headband with bow on her head.

when i reach my friend's dinner table i tol them i just met my twin!! we waited for the rest of to turn up while food is being served. i have no idea what happen next cuz Kanye was singing .. uhh that's my wake up call.

but i know one thing.. i sure as hell was happy in that dream.

someone told me, from now on.. whenever i felt down and out, just sing out RUM PUM PUM PUM MAYNNNEEEE DOWWNNNNNNNNN and i will remember my dream.

i need more of such dreams.. lol.

Wha a fee-lingggg...

it's 915pm, friday night, i'm all sweaty, tshirt stick to my skin. i'm feeling all hot and funky. BUT IT FELT GOOD!!

i just came back from doing my night brisk walk. after a month of hiatus, tonight me and my walker buddy walked about 4 to 5km. than we do a quick tone up at the park and boy i have not sweated bucket this much for ages. well ok maybe last week when i did my impact day, only because i was cycling 10km and weather was killing me.

i'm trying to get motivated again. something has to change in me. i have too. i have to be more positive even if it mean being positive all by myself....lol. cuz I MATTERS.

i realized i have been more active this year. i pick up walking as part of exercised. i joined 4km community chest walk. i cycled 10km and later end of july i be doing my 5km Shape 2011 run (well it will be brisk walk for me). i'm trying to start slow. i never good at jogging but hey we all have to start somewhere.

all i need is to stay motivated.

This should have rated...

oh mahhhhhhhhhhh gawwdddddddddddddd my kittykat, punani, vajajay which ever way you called and name it, it's hurting right now. and it all started by me trying to do good deeds for the day.

IMPACT DAY. that's what its called where once a year we try to make a difference. this year i decide to do water, keeping the water clean, learning about the eco system, etc. so i'm part of the cycling group... yeah BIG MISTAKE. i should have considered the fact that i have not ride a bicycle for almost 15years. but hey i was confident.. you know how the phrase goes, something about riding a bike (okay i admit i can't remember the exact phrase, but i know its out there.)

well i thought i chose a good bike, sturdy, seems like it can handle my weight. i was a little nervous about riding it and was kinda going ziggy zaggy couple of mins. 5 mins into it, my uhh sisterhood felt like it being split into two, it get so intimate with the seat that it gives me the kind of aching where usually it be the good kind of aching (if you know what i mean). but making love to that bicycle seat, oh my gawd.. i was in pain cuz the seat was too small for my big hips. i kept readjusting my butt trying to find comfort but each time i did that i lost control of the bike till i fell off my bike cuz i ran into a wall.. yes you can laugh.. go ahead, cuz i fell off that bike like a ripe fruit from a tree!! to make matters worst right there in the business district!! hee hee. sure i got a few scrap and bruise but hey part of the job right...

i was sweating buckets, the sun was hard, my hand start to ache, my leg was exhausted and all i did was collect rubbish 1 small bag full...lol. but hey.. i'm proud to say.. i biked 10km!! yes in all my pain and feeling funky, i'm the last person to dock my bike at the meeting point..lmao. nonetheless i have a great day. it was fun, i learn something new, i provide laughter to my friend who kept laughing at me cuz she thought i was crazy riding my bike all over the trail.

when i reach home, i swallow 2 painkillers to numb the ache. hopefully i feel better tomorrow cuz i have wedding to attend to and walking around leg gaping, like i just dismount the wildest beast from the west... is so not glamorous.

oh yeah.. for the first time in my life.. i had me a VEGAN BURGER.. i have to say.. it don't taste that bad... but its too costly for my wallet.

i still love me some meat...

Yes I Can...Yes I Can!!!

well.. i am proud to announce that i... yes me.. the one and only person who at one time, gasped at the idea of signing up to any kind of outdoor sport activities. but its a brand new day, hopefully a brand new me.. cuz i just sign up for the Shape Run 2011.

i sign up for the 5km run, well uhh i'm not running but more brisk walking. well its a start right?!! so i'm all pumped up high as a kite, like kids hyper on sweets. the only problem i have issue is the registration fee of S$55 (about US$44) and only online registration, which sucks for some who don't own a card. no doubt the goodies bag will be good, but that's not the reason why i sign on. to be honest, i have always wanted to do this, but i hate doing it by myself. so yeah i'm freaking excited cuz i'm doing with my best friend.

i was so excited that i decide to brisk walk my way home from the mrt station in my maxi dress, my sandal and box of muffin. i was so pumped that it took me only ten min from my usual 15min. folks must be wondering where the fire at... but uhh yeah the bitch payback was i could feel my thigh aching since i did not warm up.

i have about one month to prepare my mind and body for the brisk walk. so, i'm going to do my best and start on my evening walk again. yes, i been lazy and losing motivation to do so that mom began to take pot short at me.. yes, she can be mean..lol.

well i'm crossing my fingers and stroking my determination...

yes i can!!

now where that muffins at....

Back to Reality...

sigh...

vacation time is almost over. back to work on monday and i am so not looking forward to whats waiting for me back at the office.

i'm not happy with my big boss, cuz i felt she was being petty. but than again, she the boss so pretty much entitled to being an ____________.

anyway, i had the most relaxing holiday. all i did was sleep, eat, shop and lazed around the beach. i don't even bother with going sight seeing to the tourist spots, as i have already done all that on my first visit to bali eons ago. well, we did stop by the batik making outlet as it was on our way to spa treatment.

overall, the spa treatment was a little bit different from what i'm used too. first i was told to lie down on the *sun* bed, which basically looks like a big wooden table. after which, she placed an ambiance sound right next to the bed and i could feel a subtle vibration throughout. i guess perhaps it was supposed to wake up my senses. after 5mins, i was than lead to a cozy *room* and the masseuse began to loosen up all my knots. by the end of the treatment, she placed a *bowl* on my waist, my shoulder and head and slowly tap to produce sound and vibration.

it was rather exhilarating.

it was hard leaving bali on our last day. i was taking my own sweet time walking towards the custom checkpoint back at the airport. if only i can stay by the beach for another week or so...

One more day...

well not counting saturday that is...

i be on my way to bali for a 4 days, 3 night chill out with my ex colleague (first time we going together). i have yet to pack... shots i have not even go through my lists. i can't decide what to wear.. hmmm should i go for bit of glam or casual with just tshirts, which could be kinda boring. maybe i just pack both and see how my mood goes.

it takes about a month for us to plan this short getaway. fickle minded that we are, we can't decide where to stay... so many places to choose from. i end up asking friends for recommendation (eventhough i been to bali 3 times...well so long ago). originally we wanted to stay at the O-CE-N BALI, but i felt no point paying so much when we not going to be staying in the room all day. we finally decide to save some money and stay at KINDS VILLA.

i have the tendency to overpack and my worst fear is forgetting things. that's why i have a list..well more like a mental list about now. my flight on monday at 945am, air asia (first time taking budget airline). i been told to prepare myself as the leg space is very narrow. guess i can put up with it since its less than 3hrs flight.

i'm not taking mom with me as i really need MY TIME. last year trip to langkawi resulted in me not having any space for myself and was feeling a lil bit frustrated by it.

so... i'm excited over this trip. i hope the weather holds, i get to take great pictures, eat good food, shop for something that i love and who knows what else ....

May 22

for some unknown reason i was wide awake at 5am... that hardly happens, cuz i'm not a morning person.. uhhh nayy vuhhhhhh.

maybe i was excited at the thought of participating in the charity walk @ marina bay sand, i was afraid i might miss my alarm clock and therefore my body was on auto mode. feeling restless i finally get off my butt around 515am, iron my bermuda (mom have a fits if i walkout in shorts), took my shower, did my prayer and dash out of the house like my pant on fire, as it turns out i'm about to be late. it doesn't help that the dam train decide to be late.

thank gawd, ina has enough sense to ques in the registration line while waiting for us. after paying S$10, we hang around and decides to munch on marble cake and isotonic drink to give us a little bit of energy since we all step out of the house early hour of the morning on an empty stomach.

the walk took off at 8am and surrounded by more than 5000 folks. the initial start was kind of slow but as folks start to phase out there was enough room for everyone. 4km walk was easy for me, now if you ask me to jog.. hmmm i might need a medic at the 1km point..nah more like the 500 meter point..lets not kid myself now...lol

the weather was good as we completed the walk. the tiring part was queuing up to collect the goodie bag which i felt they should have done a better job of distributing.

this is the best birthday after so many years of blah. i spend time with my best friends from school days. not forgetting all the best wishes from friends and of course the presents.. hee hee.

best of all... kiss from mom on my birthday. =:O)

ps: i shouldn't feel disappointed because he didn't call. but i do...

Saturday..

for the first time in my adult life.... i went and have my hair colored and highlighted professionally and yes, i found it to be a bit on the costly side but i'm happy with the result. even though i was expecting the color to be lighter but no regrets. i was contemplating on chosing dark mahagony with red stripe...lmao. but the hairdresser wins me over. i'm waiting for mom to make some kind of comment, she only noticed that my hair was nicely *comb*...lol, but not so much the colored.

than, my friends gave me vouchers as a birthday present and i decided to splurge it on FIT FLOP sandals. i been eyeing it for quite a while but never get around to buying it as it was way too expensive for my taste. i mean seriously S$169 for pair of slippers.. come on sonn!! bless my friends for the vouchers and i just top it up to pay the balance.

so today i splurge, forgetting that i will be going to bali next week and i need money for food and entertainment. hmmm.... oh well pay day around the corner.

i'm looking forward to my beach break of 4 days and 3 nights. i hope the weather holds and i'm praying my uhh... aunt flow be here soon enough so i don't have to deal with it when i'm on vacay.

well in 1hr and 30mins i'm turning a year older but none the wiser..... hee hee.

Finally... to the Flyer we go..

its friday and my mom finally steps her foot inside the flyer capsule only to have her seated most of the ride....lol. said she was feeling a bit giddy but i think its because she was holding back hunger as we were planning to go for high tea after the ride.

the ride was ok, i'm just glad it was not raining and the view was clear that you can see much of the surrounding and wonders at all the new development surrounding the marina area. i can't wait for the new botanical garden as i'm sure it be grand. my aunt hopefully enjoyed the ride too as this is her first time riding it.

we than proceed to royal scott to meet up with 2 of my aunt's daughters in law. we been planning this since last month as it was a long weekend and we are inbound, we decide to have the ladies high tea.

it's funny when we realised all of us been on a *diet* in the morning so we could enjoy the food more during tea...lol. guess we must be really hungry cuz none of us remembers to take pictures to commemorate the day. well hopefully there will be another time.

by 7.30pm we were all exhausted from eating and window shopping. as i head home with mom, i'm happy that the day was spend with the folks i love.....

its been good...

Duck Ride ...

today was the ladies day out. i decided to treat mom and aunt for a ride on the spore flyer (yes, after she been *harrassing* and putting me on a guilt trip) only to be told the damn thing was on maintenance.

i can see mom was very disappointed. not to waste the afternoon away, i bought package duck tour (land and sea) inclusive of the flyer tickets end date in april. it was not cheap =:O(. since i have never been on one of this tour before (more for the tourist), i decide that i should enjoy every minute of it and pretend that i'm a tourist from mongolia. i have to say the trip was rather interesting, as the wind was blowing softly, whispering sweet nothing enough to say aunt fell asleep 10 mins during the sea ride.

the guide was pretty good with the facts and details and i learn something new. needless to say, i'm disgusted when told how much each of the esplanade panel cost!! so much for wanting an art centre.

the trip end with us having late noon coffee at suntec food hall and making plans for the upcoming flyer's ride. i enjoyed spending time with mom and my aunt as this is not something i do on a daily basis.

happy days..

i been possess by the shopping ghost. i breeze through the mall like i have money to burn.

i bought 5 pairs of shoes (3 flats, 2 heels) and 2 dresses.

i been eating well. stuffing my face like i been deprived of food.

half chicken (at nandos) for lunch, satay and ice kacang 3hrs later at the esplanade.

been having fast food for the past couple of days.

i must be going through something...hmmm..

oh yeahh... that emotional roller coaster shit..

i'm broke... but i'm happy =:O)

VACATION!!!.. Well soon anyway...

for the 1st time in my adult life, i make my first online booking. yes, laugh all you want to. call me backdated, backward, old fashion. i have always been paranoid to purchase anything online for fear of identity theft.

i needed to get away. desperately needs to get away from it all!! finally psyching myself up, i decided to go vacation on my own. to a beach resort in one of the malaysia state side. just a quick 3 nights of nothing but chillout and sun tan (yes sun is bad yeah yeah...)

when i mentioned this wonderful plan of mine on what i'm going to do for my birthday, mom was like.. hhmm.. nope i'm coming along and please ask your aunt since she has never been there. i'm like wha dah hellllll....

never before booked anything online, i was rather hesitant about doing so. but not having much of a choice and time is running out, i finally takes the courage to confirm both flights and lodging today. yeah!!!

anyway, i don't have the heart to say no to mom, considering its been a while since she was on vacation. 3 women, footloose and carefree will be chilling at the pristine white sandy beach (hopefully), lodging by the lakefront room (hopefully it has a gorgeous view). only problem now, i need a dam new camera and i'm already over my budget.

hmmm on second thought maybe mom wanted to tag alone, caused she just doesn't like the idea that i might be wearing less when i'm at the beach. sigh...

however, the next time around... i be by myself.........oh yeah...

a great day overall...

lesson learn...

never ever will i go for breakfast buffet again.

i don't wake up early on the weekend cuz its the only days i can sleep in couple of hours extra. i don't wake up early in the morning on the weekend unless there's a man involved or mom with her insisting knocking on my door to accompany her to the market. yeah that will do it...

but i make an exception for an old friend as a belated birthday celebration. she chose to have a luxurious, relaxing breakfast where we can sit and catch up. so i make reservation at the hyatt straits kitchen as a surprise cuz she thinking we be hanging out at micky d's for pancake. nah... i thought i gave her a treat instead.

so we chill out, two cups of cappucinos, 3 glass of fruit juice and numerous round of pancakes, salads and what have you... all i wanted right than was my bed and maybe pail to throw up .. just in case. we were so stuffed to the max, that we felt so disgusted we make a pack never to do this again.

we decides to walk it off and do some window shopping, where i end up buying handbag for my aunt since its her birthday, a jigsaw puzzle for my lil cousin.. since its his birthday and i can't decides what to buy for ice tea since his birthday coming up next. gawd... my bank balance is crying right now... we end the day by watching *the hangover*... good hilarious movie, ahhh i so wish i'm back in vegas right now... so much good memories.

i had a wonderful time with my old school friend. we chat, we laugh, we burped. i'm glad she likes the garnet earing i bought for her...

its been a good day.

the only spoiler of the day was me having the sudden attack of the sneezing fits and watery eye after the movie... dam.

the weekend...

i swear i was not going to shop till my birthday, but i caved in when i saw a mock snake skin handbag that looks *classy* and *expensive* but only cost me S$59. so what a girl to do but grab it while its hot. the salesperson told me it just arrive a few hours ago. i'm such a sucker....lol.

i been totting that bag for almost a month and had 5 folks asking me where i bought it.. my aunt even wanted to buy it from me. i'm like.. hayle nawwwwwwwwwww. mom asked why i did not buy one for her, i'm like.. uhhh u really like this?

anyway, i just came back from a short weekend away with mom, aunt and my cousin. we spend four days in batam island staying at the holiday inn for 1 night cuz my cousin too cheap and we end up staying at a friend place the rest of the stay. sigh. no i did not enjoy that part of the deal. the holiday inn was a nice place to getaway from folks but the beach sucks majorly. so next time i need to runway from folks i know where to head out.

my cousin and i treats ourselves to a head to toe spa treatment, facial, medi and pedicure, wash and blow hair, since we did not have enough time to have deep hair treatment. treatment started from 10.30am and lasted till 4pm. yes that's the life i wish i have on a monthly basis. cost of the whole head to toe thingy.......... S$120. CHEAP!! CHEAP!! CHEAP!!!!!! back in spore the spa treatment of 60mins will cost you S$150. so yeah cousin and i will try to find a time to do it again next month or so whenever our work schedule allows.

we had seafood for dinner consists of 2 chilli crabs, 2 plates of bbq stingray with hot sauce, hot plate tofu, kai lan vegies, prawns and bbq squid.... it only cost us S$60. whooo hoooooooooo!!

overall, i did not shop for myself when we were at the local malls. i like to shop at my own phase but when you have 4 others tagging along and breathing down your neck, that takes the fun out of it.

so i came back empty handed when i wanted to shop for fake brand handbag. yes... they have really nice fake good of quality. shot, i bought a fake lv coin purse the last time i was there folks thought it was the real thing.

anyway, i hope i get to escape there soon for another spa treatment, for i truly deserves it!!

New Prez In History

i rushed home hoping and praying my tv for once have pity on me and today of all day i needed to have visual as i wanted to watch obama being sworn in. no such luck!! i gave it a gentle knock, a shake and still it refuses to entertain me.

sigh.

thank gawd my ol laptop is not failing me right now. i had to warm it up a little and finally it comes to live..yessssss... cnn online!!

as i'm typing this, i'm waiting excited to watch history in motion. feeling the obama fever sweeping through eventhough i'm no where near and staring at a dam screen, still it feels right. i'm so going to sleep late, trying to watch as much as i could and i know i'm going to be groggy in the morning, hope i wont oversleep.

there so much putting into this man. everyone, all over the world hoping for a change. only time will tell...

i'm feeling all sentimental...