A stalker in need of help...

i am officially a stalker. an amateur stalker that is.

i been stalking someone profile, gawd i hope it won't show how many time my name appears on his list. i mean no harm, i just love looking at his smile.

each time i login, no matter how many time i browse for others, i end up at his page. something about this particular adam (as in adam and eve) pulls me like a damn magnet. i kept reading his profile write up, wondering how true he is to his words. you know how it goes, they be writing all sweet and shit but when in reality, it be all different. but for now, guess i take his words for it. ahhhhh... i don't know what to do. well actually i did something...

well uhhhh, i did send him a brief message like almost 2 months ago to be exact 12 May. no reply and today, when i check i got the flashing envelope by his name. which indicated it was not read and deleted. i was crush. but..... his profile indicated he has not login for 2 months. soo... i'm thinking perhaps, unanswered messages get deleted automatically after a certain duration. YES I'M CONSOLING myself.

kr said, i should send him another message. maybe something a little bit more *traditional*. but i don't know if i can handle another unanswered auto delete.... sigh.

i'm feel really stupid like a teenager struck by first love. i should be embarrased...