Me..

i never said it out loud to anyone before... well not one that i can remember (ohhh shitay..is this the sign of .. uhh nevermind).

i have a problem of letting go.... my anger.

when i'm upset with someone i cares to the core.. yeah i said it.. to the core.. its hard for me to let go of my pissy mode. i want to air it out, but at most time it could be misunderstood and both parties become defensive. in the moment of heat (well not the other kind of heat.. hee hee) my mouth goes in auto gear and my brain follow suits 3seconds later. than i get all hussy and goes cold turkey on them. even after couple of days has pass by, the scene will get all played out in brain. i get to a point where i be having mental conversation of what i wanted to say to the other party, rolling in my head like a dam script.

there's only one person that understand my *tantrum* and have stood by me through all my ups and down, for that i'm truly greatful for. when he told me i need to chill the hell out, i better listen..lol.

as i grow older, this is the part where i'm not getting any wiser. i'm trying. i really am...