throughout my adult life, i realize i've never be the first to confess being in love with a man till he said it first. i will than re-evaluate how i feels about him. is my feeling towards him genuine or am i saying it because i'm afraid to be alone. if i don't say it, will he gets upset and accused me of leading him on....

when i finally do said i'm in love, why does it never leads to happy ever ending. where did i go wrong. getting broken-hearted is no fun. i grieved, get angry and at times denial. but after a period, slowly my heart heals until the next one comes along and said that magic words that makes a woman heart flutters and warm sensation runs through her body. i be on guard, an invisible wall will rise for i'm not sure if he really do loves me. how can someone said he loves me and than changes his mind. i don't take falling in love lightly. it takes a lot of work, emotion, patience, understanding and acceptance. maybe that's why i've never said i love you.... cuz i'm afraid i get hurt all over again.

my cousin sent me this quote:

'God determines who walks into your life.

It is up to you to decide who you
let walk away,

who you let stay, and who you
refuse to let go.'

something to remember by...