If You Can Grant Me...

Been trying to blog but as usual, the website was down.

To sum up the week....

I've decided to cut my hair ... well shorter anyway. It's reaching my waist and felt heavy, plus with the humidity... it drives me nuts. I was contemplating on perming it.. .making it all curly like, but that going to cost me a bomb... so I decides to trim it shorter. The hairdresser quote me S$120 just to highlight my hair... I'm like.. hayle naw!!!! Maybe I ask one of my cousin to highlight for me instead. I just pray when that happen it would not be an experiment gone wrong.

Mother's day went pretty well. I'm not in a habit to buy mom gifts, instead I gave her money so she could used it any which way she choose. By experience, each time I bought her a gift, she makes a big fuss... so I stopped. It was an emotional morning for her, as I wished and hugged her, she broke down.


Mom: You loves me right? (all teary eyed)

GiGi: Awww mom of course I do, no matter how upset I get with you.

Mom: I have no one else...

Gigi: It's going to be ok mom... I'm here..


I guess I understood where that emotional moment comes from. Having to attend two funerals within 4 days and the drama that unfolds... it gets to all of us. Loves the one you with, forgive the one you hate. Well, that's my motto anyway (for now that is). There are couple of folks that I still have problem forgiving. When we do cross path, I pretend they a walking corpse. Yeah... that's how I gets when someone hurt me deeply to a point I find it unforgivable....in other word... they dead to me.

Anyway... we spend the day at my cousin's place. We had a good time, food was good, the companies were good. There were a 6 families, all my cousins were there. We watch one horror flicks after another (pirated dvd of course....lol). Now that's a record for me, as I hated watching Malay movies, much less to sit throughout the whole show. I guess being with my extended families, makes it fun.


I'm still waiting for 2nd call for interview. I really needs this job, working at DSC is making me frustrated and angry. Job is hard to come by, I'm holding on because of paycheck. Since working at DSC, my temper is back and its not healthy for me. Each single day, I sit at my *hot desk* I would plug my earphone, blast to R & B just to make it through the day. Ohh.. I'm still professional about my job. Cordial to folks around me but I don't get attached to my work or the environment. 3/4 of the folks working there are motherf*ckers. I'm looking at a point where I'm selling them my service for the day, complete the task and leave when the job is done at the end of the day. I find no satisfaction, like I used to. Now they got me handling a different channel... not a big deal, just another task and challenge for me, more to add on my resume.


So Big Guy I know you hear me .... you know I need this job. Not just the paycheck but for my sanity sake.... so please.. please... I'm begging you... make that phone call come true, for I truly needs this job. Please, make them offer me the job because I know I'm capable of doing a good job plus the experience to do it.


Please grant me this wish for my birthday.....