Dilemma

Mr High Yella be celebrating his birthday on 8 May. Usually I would have post his birthday card a week before, but for some reason I been putting it off. I was thinking about calling him on the day itself, but I'm having doubt.

Last, I spoke to him was on new years day. Its been 5 months since and not once he called or drop me an email. I wish him happy thanksgiving by text messages, post him a Christmas card because I thought it would be a nice thing to do. And to let him know there is no hard feeling on my part.

He was not expecting that call but was surprised. I called to wish someone that I cared for at one point (and strangely I still do) all the good blessing for the coming years. That's what friends do .... right? But for some twisted reason, he has the impression that I want us to be a couple again.


Mr Yella: I was just thinking about you this morning. And the Christmas card was a really nice gesture, especially what you wrote in the card.

GiGi: Oh.. I thought maybe you don't received the card, since you don't even send me an email to say you received them. Nice of you to be thinking of me, but I guess not enough to pick up the phone and say hello.

Mr Yella: Well... uhh...I don't know if I want to turn back the clock. To go through with the... (this is where I cut him off)

GiGi: Hmm.. wait a sec.. hold up. I'm not even talking about us getting back together. But it would be a nice humanly gesture if you could drop me a note just to let me know you received it. I'm not even asking you to call. You said you want us to be friends. As a friend, I' called to wish you a happy new year and all the best. If you felt uncomfortable with this phone call, well don't worry about it.. it will be my last than.

Mr Yella: Uhh.. uhh.. thats not what I mean..

(there's more to the conversation and I already felt like hanging up the phone.)


I'm not going to deny, it hurt.... it stills do. The things that he said without putting much thought into it. I guess that's why I'm hesitating about calling him on his special day. Simply, I don't want to have a repetition of the conversation that we had. Maybe he found someone new to celebrate this year. This time last year, I would be in Pasadena, Cali... celebrating our birthday in Vegas.. yeah I'm reminiscing.... can't help myself, I'm a woman with a sentimental heart.

Well... life goes on. I hope he has a great birthday. I don't think I would call but I will post that birthday card eventually.. it just going to be a belated wish. Still, its the thought that counts...that what friends do ..... right?

I be celebrating mine......




Alone...