She's All I Got

Yeah.. I went off in my last post. Gone ballistic and it ain't pretty for me to be cussin like a sailor all tank up (wonder if that's the right phrase... hmm.. oh well).

Was having a really bad jacked up day and all I wanted to do was to vent out my angst. This whole week has been nothing but eff up at work and next week ain't going be no difference. Been working late and I'm so mentally exhausted, I began to hate this mothereffing job!! Came back late, hungry, moody and I swear if someone steps up to me wrong.. I be doing Sheneney... neck be going 360.. eyes wildin, fingers be waving all ovah.... Oh No You Di'nt!!!.....sigh...

On a serious note....

Bless Mom... she greeted me at the door, rubbed my arms and asked if I had dinner. A Kodak moment taken over me and I was glad to be home and seeing her there. She sat with me while I ate and listen to me venting out my frustration. In true fashion of a mother, she advised me to be patience and just do my best, for this is a test. Looking at her face of experience, I was ashamed. Here is a woman, who worked at a factory most of her adult life, woke up at 4am to cook for her husband and child before she went off to work, coming home late noon do house chores and taking care of her family. Here I am, compared to her working life, had it pretty much easy and yet has the audacity to rant.

A thought cross my mind.. she the only blood relation I have left. I can't imagine her not being there...it would be so lonely. As much of a pain in the butt we both can be, she still my mom. Relationship between us has never been a walk at the park. Sure we have our moments, we scream, we yelled, we both ends up crying and not talking to each other for days...but we both knows we have loves for one another.

Loves of a mother never ends, never knows any boundaries and its never ending.