Worries

I can't help feeling disheartened right now. I wanted this job so bad for the sake of daily survival in this monetary world than anything else. Sucks not having a permanent job. Reason not to hire you base on your lack of particular language. Yes that shit been going on for far too long only recently the local paper decides to ban job ads that's discriminate. FUCK THAT SHIT CUZ IT LONG OVERDUE!!

Its been hard for the past couple of months. No one knows what I been through mentally and emotionally. Its been draining me out....even physically. Keep telling myself something positive going to be taking place soon... keep my spirit up.... keep my chin up... can't let folks see my weaknesses. Keep telling myself this is part and parcel of life. As the phrase goes... life is like a damn circle, one moment you up... next you down. Well... I'M KISSING THE FUCKING DIRT RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!.......Phew that feels better....lol.

However, deep down inside .... no one knows my fear....