For almost two months I been neglecting my blog. Maybe I have nothing to say at the time. But than again maybe I have too much to say that I don't know where to starts, just thinking about it, letting it run amok in my head, makes me so exhausted that by the time I wanted to blog it out, I don't have the energy for it.
Have you ever had a moment when you're by yourself and you having a two way conversation with yourself... I mean not talking out loud but a conversation in your mind. Please tell me I'm not the only one having a lot of these moments. Cuz sure as hell I don't want to think I'm losing my dam self talking in my head. Sigh...
I been so tired lately, mostly because it's fasting month right now, even though in couple of days it be the end of Ramadan. Work have taken a chunk of my energy and I felt like a zombie on days where I can't even think straight. I have been neglecting phone calls that I promised to return simply because I don't have the energy to have simple conversation. All I wanted to do was have my dinner and sleep. Maybe its a health issue, but I'm afraid to go for checkup. I promised myself before the year end I will do so, but I know what my year end work schedule going to be like that I probably postpone it again.
I'm worried about mom. Suddenly she seems older and tired lately, maybe because she's fasting. I hope that's about it. I know her knees been giving her problems. I been buying her joint supplements and hopefully it ease her aching. It saddens me to see her like this. Sometimes, I worried about leaving her alone at home, I can't afford a live-in maid, so I have to remind her not to do something foolish to avoid from hurting herself. Sigh... sometimes I wish I have siblings that I could turn too for help...
Okay my dam laptop is being *temperamental* right now. I can't type smoothly without it freezing every few seconds. Before I lost my cool, let me sign off now.
ps: My cuz just told me he bought Nikon DSLR 300 (I think) plus the kits. When I asked him if he's interested in photography, he said most of his friends have it to take pictures for wedding and etc. HUH??? That's what goes off in my mind. So you bought the camera cuz your friends have it, not because you have MAJOR interest in photography. Sigh.... I hate him right now cuz I'm freaking jealous since I can't afford to buy me my dream Canon DSLR!! Oh well this will pass... but for now.. Uhh.. Yeah.. MM... I'm hatin...
Have you ever had a moment when you're by yourself and you having a two way conversation with yourself... I mean not talking out loud but a conversation in your mind. Please tell me I'm not the only one having a lot of these moments. Cuz sure as hell I don't want to think I'm losing my dam self talking in my head. Sigh...
I been so tired lately, mostly because it's fasting month right now, even though in couple of days it be the end of Ramadan. Work have taken a chunk of my energy and I felt like a zombie on days where I can't even think straight. I have been neglecting phone calls that I promised to return simply because I don't have the energy to have simple conversation. All I wanted to do was have my dinner and sleep. Maybe its a health issue, but I'm afraid to go for checkup. I promised myself before the year end I will do so, but I know what my year end work schedule going to be like that I probably postpone it again.
I'm worried about mom. Suddenly she seems older and tired lately, maybe because she's fasting. I hope that's about it. I know her knees been giving her problems. I been buying her joint supplements and hopefully it ease her aching. It saddens me to see her like this. Sometimes, I worried about leaving her alone at home, I can't afford a live-in maid, so I have to remind her not to do something foolish to avoid from hurting herself. Sigh... sometimes I wish I have siblings that I could turn too for help...
Okay my dam laptop is being *temperamental* right now. I can't type smoothly without it freezing every few seconds. Before I lost my cool, let me sign off now.
ps: My cuz just told me he bought Nikon DSLR 300 (I think) plus the kits. When I asked him if he's interested in photography, he said most of his friends have it to take pictures for wedding and etc. HUH??? That's what goes off in my mind. So you bought the camera cuz your friends have it, not because you have MAJOR interest in photography. Sigh.... I hate him right now cuz I'm freaking jealous since I can't afford to buy me my dream Canon DSLR!! Oh well this will pass... but for now.. Uhh.. Yeah.. MM... I'm hatin...
4 comments:
yeah
sometimes I have those conversations
hang in there
ask your cuz if you can *borrow* his camera
;)
yeah me too!
hello hello GC & ED!!
@ gc,
hmm i doubt very much he would be willing to lend me his new toy.
@ ed,
gurlllllll what u been what to?? oh hell let me go read your page..
Hello Gigi:
It is good to read you sista. Ramadan is almost over and we will all be up to strength again.
Me moms, like yours, is looking and feeling tired. It will get better once the swing of things return.
Then you can treat the grand lady to a night out eating somewhere close to that all-day/night department store (I forget the name ... but so she can shop too ;)
Hang in sista. We about there.
Peace,
Ridwan
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