I'm Depress

The day started well.... in the morning at least. Than shit happens.

I screw up MAJORLY at work. The kind of screw up that makes your heart palpitates double time. The inside of your stomach doing somersault and you can sense you about to break into hives and sweat formation can be seen gathering on your forehead. While all this physical shit happening to you, you still try to smile and stay calm like ain't shit happening, all the while you starts saying your prayer in double time and starts making promises to the big guy upstairs, hopefully he can save the day.



I can't go into details, but it left me feeling depressed and shitty and nervous of the outcome. Eventhough me and my immediate supervisor *kinda* clear the situation, still at the back of your mind.. it bugs the hell out of you. I don't make this kinda mistake... but I was careless and it happens. I did not make any lame excuses, I accepted the fact I messed up. Surprisingly, Ice Queen was not giving me a major hard time about it, but it left a less impression on me as a *99.9% error free* worker.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh fuckery!!! What a way to close 07.......and I was doing so dam well at my job too....SHIT SHIT SHITTTTTT!!!

Please God, if you hear me ... I know you hear me LOUD AND CLEAR AND VOICE CRACKING... please... make sure I don't screw up again. Please...once is enough.. please, I'm begging you... keep me in your safe haven...