When We Forget..

This ol laptop is really testing my patience today.... it tested me so much to a point I had to wooosahhhhhh or end up throwing it against the damn wall!! It took an hour for it to start up and don't ask me what is wrong with it, cuz when it comes to techie .. I be the first to admit I'M CLUELESS. I expect sh*t to start up immediately I hit the start button.

However, if I don't have this ol laptop, I could never surf the net, check my email and read other folks blogs...lol. I'm thankful for the fact, Ice Tea came through for me when I truly in needs of computer and I'm too broke to get new one. So, as much as I felt like throwing this ol *Black Beauty* to the damn wall... I had to compose my ass and count my blessing cuz I got BB for free, from a friend who cares for me.

I'm tired of watching the news, that I avoid watching them if I could. But today, I sat and watch the 7pm CNN and the usual middle east issues fill up the whole 30 mins segment. Its depressing me. I see families running around looking for shelters, food, missing families. And something hit me... that could have been me... what if I'm not bornto be who I am right now, to my parent, lived where I live, so on and so forth. If God has different plan for me and I'm one of these victims that I seen and read daily in news.

I felt whatever problem that I have been going through on a daily basis, seems minute compared to what's been going on with people from the middle east, with folks who fighting hunger in Dafur, and chaos and unrest in many parts of the world. I may not be financially sufficient, but I have a shelter that I call my home. I don't have to sleep with my eyes open, wondering if my shelter going to be bomb or attack. I don't go hungry, as there's always food. I felt guilty when I looked at food being wasted. I get upset with kids don't want to eat, like my cousin's son. Sometimes, I just wanna pick that boy up and shake his bony ass and tell him about kids starving to death... and here he is, table full of food and he said, the food ain't good. What the f*ck!! I swear if that was my kid, I would have whip his ass for being ungrateful.

I may not have much, but compared to them.... I have more than I could ask for. My late dad always told me, we may not understand what God have in stored for us and we get frustrated when things get a little hard to deal with. We become temporary blindness, we too consumed with our own problems to look around and see what we already have. We forget to say our blessing... and I am guilty of such. I miss my dad..

I cant think anymore... suddenly I feels tired....

Maybe I will continue with this later...