UPDATE: Stalker Mode on the go...

Update (aug 2):

my stalking spell is winding down. considering that we both on different timezone and communication seems to be a hindrance (to him), i let him decides if he still wish to communicate with moi. i'm not chasing for it. if it meant to be, it will.....

have not heard from him than.... but its all good. at least i take my chances. =;O)

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so you have been looking for me online huh....

i been cheezin, smiling from ear to ear eversince i read your email this morning. brief as it may be your reply, but its enough to makes me smile.

yeah, mr puckerlicious lips i see yaa...uh huhh

On Stalker Mode...

do you remember me mentioning i have a crush on a certain member, where i began to have the sign of a stalker? yeah that dude whose smile makes me going back to his profile for like numerous time that i'm sure by the time IF HE DECIDES to log in he gonna block me for real. well... i decide to gives up on him. its not healthy for me...lol.

nahhhhhhhh....

i found me a new chap to stalk. yeah i'm a sucker for a guy with contagious smile and lawddd trust me this one has smile that will melt the ice and soup cooler to warm you up.. hee hee. so.. my stalking tendency goes over drive and i decide to drop him an email complimenting his pic (i'm praying hard it's the real deal, i mean his pic that is). nothing too off the wall, just a generic hello nice smile have a great day kinda brief email. not even a hope to hear from you. i figures, if he going to reply great.. if not.. oh well, i was sincere with my compliment.

well oh well.. guess what.. yeah i'm cheezin right now cuz dude replied and ask how i'm doing and said, he doesn't want me to think i was being ignored....... SUUUUWEEEEETTTTT!!

ok ok, i know.. he probably just being polite and such, but hey... its all good on my end. yeah i reply back.. thought i wanna play it cool.. you know like wait till thursday to reply him. you know act all nonchalant like i have too many things to do but check emails. but shit, i could drop dead tomorrow and he thought I WAS IGNORING HIM. so.. i wrote back.

now its the waiting time...

I Got Me A Medal... hee hee...

the alarm went off at 530am. i drag my sleepy self out of bed, took a shower, did the morning prayer, get dress and out the door by 6am. with no breakfast. i was in a rush to be there by 645am i don't even have time for a toast.

hail a cab, paid $14 drop me off at meeting point while i wait for zu. while waiting, i can see the crowd of ladies in all shapes and sizes, off different races and nationality comes together, slowly marching in from all corners in the official blue top, looking like sea of smurfettes. it didn't cross my mind to snap pics, guess i was nervous and excited at the same time anticipating the brisk walk, praying i make it final point.

we finally set off at 730am, while most of the runners took off jogging, i walk at my own phase trying to get the rhythm. all i wanted to do was complete this race. as we approached the 500m of the finishing point, both zu and myself start to jog slowly. as we pass the finishing mark we give each other high five and smiling like we just won the new york marathon race..lol.

it was a great morning, as i get to reconnect with old friends and saying hello to new ones. than we all make our way to have a big breakfast at the local cafe and just chill out and having a good laugh.

shape run 5km in 48min.... i can't ask for anything better...

Who R U?

the elevator door open, i look up and immediately i saw you. or should i say we saw each other at the very same moment. i think i have a smile or i think it was a smile. you know the kind of smile like you have a secret but you not telling yet. well i hope it was a smile cuz i'm damn sure i could feel both end of my lips went up slightly. our eyes lock but i quickly look away. i'm not use to looking at strange man directly. hmmm especially if he looks like you... yeah i look at them on the sly.. hee hee.

i can tell that you're tall by the way you were seated. sitting straight, reading the paper. your white shirt still looking kinda crisp...dam did you starched it? white shirt, blue jean and that buzz military hairdo.....gawd my mind was having nasty thoughts. i do a quick all over, trying not to be so obvious. hmmm.. wondering if i can wash lingerie on your ab.. ok snap out of it!!

as i step out to the lobby, we both look away. but i know you were checking me out... how do i know that..

cuz you look up when i walk pass you.

dammit, of all day i'm in my sloppiest friday moment. double dammit!! should have worn my new maxi dress. maybe he would remember me as that lady in the blue dress....

sigh.. if only. but hey... at least i was brave enough to look him in the face, even if its for the briefest moment.

yeah i'm shy like that.... lol.

wonder if i will see him again...

The Queen is back with a bump...

i had a scare.

mom came back from visiting grandad only to be told that she fell and hit her head hard. the initial bump was huge (according to my aunts), but subsides a little couple of days later. however, when she came back yesterday, the bump has is still there. its been 4 days since that incident.

i took her to see the doctor in the morning. it took us almost 2.5hrs of waiting time (since we went to general public instead of private) for a less than 15min consultation. we than proceed to the hospital for further check up. i decides mom should have xtray and brain scan to eliminate any worries like internal bleeding or hairline fracture.

while waiting for all this to go through, all i could think about was her health. it was a blessing when the results show that mom is well. guess her skull is in good shape...lol. doctor said, the bump will remain till about 2 weeks or so as it wont subside that quickly. mom need to do a follow up in 2 days time. if she has any symtom of throwing up, visual impairment, headache, etc she needs to check-in asap. i'm praying that won't happens.

i'm just counting my blessing and grateful to God, for i was full of worries but trying hard not to show mom. but i know she was scared cuz she refuse to have lunch till everything is over with. i know mom.. she loves food too much to pass it.

i'm glad she's home =:O)

last night, it hit hard on me.

it must be all the quiet in the house and too much time on my hand.

either that or

pms was hitting me like the mofo.

but i was feeling really down and alone and just wishing that i have someone to call my own.