my stalking spell is winding down. considering that we both on different timezone and communication seems to be a hindrance (to him), i let him decides if he still wish to communicate with moi. i'm not chasing for it. if it meant to be, it will.....
have not heard from him than.... but its all good. at least i take my chances. =;O)
i'm having issues with one particular human being at work. i get all stress out dealing with this beeyatch... yes i feel like calling her names cuz i'm so done with her but i still need to keep my cool.
my boss even told me, if this how she wants to play her game, i have to play too. but that's not how i am at work. i don't like office politics, i don't like to play games, i don't like to email every tom, dick and harry every opportunities i got so that i will look good, like i'm on point, like i'm on the ball. if i spot something is not right or something is being overlook i will casually let you know, because i regard you as a friend colleague. because its not an issue that needs to be attend by other folks when it just a small issue that can be dealt with by 2 working adults, amicably. emailing back and forth over issues that is insignificant only caused a hostile working environment and that's what i was avoiding and yes i told my boss that too. he understood and agrees with me. he said it's hard working with folks who don't know how to give and take and only wants thing done their way.
maybe i'm naive in dealing with this beeyatch. throughout my working history, i have always avoided hostile working environment, i deal with the issue one on one and find an amicable agreement and working arrangement. but i guess, looking good with the boss is all that matters when dealing with her...
help me, before i snap and called her a BITCH right to her face...
falling sick is no fun especially when i been coughing, nose blockage, fever going up and down.
meds not working and i'm cussing the doc. i miss eating my fried chicken, drinking my lime juice and snacking on my potato chips. yeah a healthy diet...lol.
i don't feel like paying another S$75 dollars for doc consultation and its med not even working its dam magic.
right now i wish i'm spending my time lazing around on sandy beaches in bora bora instead of nursing my sinus for the past two weekends.
i'm stressing cuz mom's knees in pain, i'm planning to take wednesday off to see a doctor and we will proceed from there. folks said its the norm as you gets older, your knees going to go first. i have a strong feeling that the doctor going to recommend her knee cap replacement and that going to cost lots of money.
there goes my vacation this year.
someone i know been on a fasting diet of no sugar, caffiene, carbo and deep fried. food that past his mouth is pretty much chicken, fish, pasta (don't ask me why that is not considered carbo on his list). well i guess it must have really works cuz he lost 8 pounds (not sure how much that is in KG). he been at it for more than a month and decides to stay on this diet as he claims he don't have the craving for comfort food and snacks. however, he still going to have the occassional frapucinno when the needs arises.
sigh..
ps: it's 1.40am sunday and i'm still wide awake...
The first time I heard this song, I'm hook like an addict to potato chips. His raspy voice.. yes, I said R A S P Y.... sooooo freaking sexy. Just imagine having intimate conversation listening to that voice talking sweet.. okayyyyyyy I'm getting way ahead of myself here...lol.
Anthony collaboration with India Arie in one word...... Superb!!
While riding the bus to work this week, I was hit with a sudden sadness. I miss my dad so much that I tried to recall his smile, his voice, the twinkle in his eyes when he laugh. His dark curly hair, the look of tiredness from his hard day of work. Or when he sit quietly and enjoy his cigarette with his cup of coffee. I even miss the early morning knock on my bedroom door reminding me to do my morning prayer.
What I miss most was us watching the teletubbies together...and laugh.
I miss him and yet I can't bring myself to look at his last photos taken before his passing. Instead I look at the one photo that he took with my mom on their honeymoon trip that hangs on my wall. I wonders how much different my life will be now, if he's alive. I know most of the decision made will be base on his approval more than it be on mine. I wonder if he knows I miss him..
I can't remember when the last time I cried over him, but I'm tearing up right now.
Hmm.... nothing much going on in my life right now. Oh well except for the fact, my turkey trip is coming true. Only problem, I'm going to be broke before this trip can even take place and I'm going to be REAL BROKE after the trip taken place...sigh.
I'm trying to psyche myself up for this trip, but to no avail right now. Financially, it's very tight. Yes, I have put aside *spending* money for the trip and I hope I won't go overboard with spending when I'm on a trip like I usually do. The tour agency going to brief us in regards to the trip on May 3 and give us a checklist (I think). We actually comes up with alternative places to go in case this trip is not taking place. USA, Australia and Bali were on the list.
This trip was supposed to be a birthday treat for myself...but suddenly now it felt like a financial burden. I can't really cancel the trip since I paid for the deposit (nah actually I could, I think) and I know Nora been looking forward to the trip too. So, I have now until than... to psyche myself up....
Les Feuilles Mortes (Autumn Leaves) - Andrea Bocelli
On this Valentine Day, love the one you with, but love yourself more. I post two of my favourite Andrea Bocelli songs. This man can sing and melts your heart or bring tears of joy. His voice is mesmerizing and captivating. Enjoy...
Yes I'm still going tru' the funky chicken arghh moment, these songs suits mah mood as about now. If only I have tub of rocky road ice cream right now.. it be just purrr-fecctt!!
Feeling mushy the whole day, I been jammin to ol schools good luvin feeling song that makes you just wanna rub belly buttons with that someone... lol.
Gawd I love this song, I can listen to it over and over and over....gooseeeeeeee bumps!!
Thinking of you That's all I seem to do When you're not here I long to hold you near
Baby, this time Together we must bare Holdin' you close Takin' time to let you know
Tonight's the night we will share Turn off the lights, come close to me Tell me I'm all you ever need Tell me it's not just a dream And if it is my heart believes That you are mine and this is real, oh...oh...
(Kissing you) Lovin' you all through the night (Share my love) It will be all right
What's better than A love that's made for two I cannot count the ways I feel for you
But you should know And startin' from today From this point on My love is here to stay
Lie close to me, hold on Let's make our love last all night long Baby, I'm yours, take all of me, oh...oh... I'll never try to bring you down My love will always be around Yes, I'm convinced you're all I need, oh...
(Kissing you) Lovin' you all through the night (Share my love) Tonight is our night (Together), yeah
(Kissing you) Oh Lovin' you all through the night (Share my love) It will all turn out right
Tonight's the night we will share Turn off the lights, come close to me Tell me I'm all you ever need, oh...oh...oh... Tell me it's not just a dream And if it is my heart believes That you are mine and this is real, this is real, oh...oh...
(Kissing you) Ooh...ooh...ooh...ooh... My baby (Share my life) Ooh, lady, let me show you that, let me show you that I love you
(Kissing you) Yes, I do So do it for me and I'll do it for you, honey (Share my love) You got me in the mood that I'm in Can't nobody stop me now
(Kissing you) Can't nobody save you now 'Cause you're gonna love me (Share my life
I was clearing up my paper mess, you know.... old bills, letters, reminders blah blah blah and I never realized how much mess I accumulated till today. I still have a another piles to go through but lost the momentum.
Hidden under all the papers, I came across a valentine card from him, dated 2006. Its a simple card, pink in color with flower imprint on the cover and the wording For My Fiancee. I've forgotten that I ever have this card. For some reason it feels heavy in my hand, like all the disappointment, the hurt all weigh on that one card.
I opened to read the card and there, written in his awkward handwriting All My Love Until Forever, Love Mr Liteskin.
How can a man declared his love only to hurt the person they claimed to be in love and have no conscience at all. Like its just business...
I put the card back into the envelope. I can't seems to bring myself to tear it pieces.
I love this song... I love the way she sang it... I can close my eyes and feel the love and tenderness, the craving, hunger to be with.....
Needless to say, when I sang it to Tennessee.. hmm well... lol.. you get the idea......lol
You're who I desire, you light my fire With every kiss, you take me higher Feeling like your lovin' I just cannot resist There's something that's makin' me hold on There's no one I'd rather share my good lovin' with But I promised I'd wait'til I'm ready for this
[Chorus:] One day we'll make love, passion unheard of I'll be your woman, if I have my way We will see heaven, lovin' together We won't stop ever, if I have my way
I love you're touch, it makes me crumble I'm in love so much, look what you've done Please don't whisper anything else in my ear My body, my heart and my soul is high Let me find the strength to get on up outta' here Cause one day, the way we feel, we'll be alright
[Chorus:] One day we'll make love, passion unheard of I'll be your woman, if I have my way We will see heaven, lovin' together We won't stop ever, if I have my way
I love you, no doubt about it I won't change my mind Love's so true If I had my way I will make love to you
[Chorus:] One day we'll make love, passion unheard of I'll be your woman, if I have my way We will see heaven, lovin' together We won't stop ever, if I have my way
